Wednesday, February 27, 2008

A Whole Day Satisfied in Christ

"O God, You are my God; I shall seek you earnestly (early in greek);
My Soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You.
In a dry and weary land where there is no water.
Thus I have seen You in the sanctuary,
To see Your power and Your glory.
Because Your lovingkindness is BETTER than life,
My lips will praise You.
So I will bless You as long as I live;
I will lift up my hands in Your name.
My soul is SATISFIED as with marrow and fatness,
And my mouth offers praises with joyful lips.

When I remember you on my bed,
I meditated on You in the night watches,
For You have been my help,
And in the shadow of Your wings I sing for joy.
My soul clings to You;
Your right hand upholds me."
~Psalms 63:1-8

This verse was brought up in bible study last night. We were talking about how each of us has an insatiable need that can ONLY be filled by Christ. No matter what we TRY to fill our life with (food, exercise, volunteering, church, work etc) it will never be enough....there will always be empty places. Until we allow ourselves to be filled with the LIVING WATER. The whole analogy of being SOOOO thirsty where NOTHING comes close to meeting your thirst except water is wonderful to me. I have recently gotten into a very consistent work out routine and I have found myself SO THIRSTY because of it. I just can't get enough water and I am NOT a water drinker. So the whole idea of being thirsty for God really speaks to me. This is why I LOVE the can hear the same thing over and over and each time a different portion applies to your life. :)

I LOVED this passage of scripture because it is talking about meeting with God in the morning and in the evening and pouring yourself out each and every day, but allowing God to fill you back up because you know he is the only thing that can satisfy. I have been at that point my christian walk where I just can't get enough of scripture and can't get enough time in prayer with God. I remember when I was on prayer team for Impact, a christian retreat for freshman at A&M. For a WHOLE week all we did was lift up the concerns brought to us for our freshman and spend time dialoguing with Christ. We would have 8 hour shifts. I remember even when I would go try to go to sleep, I would have to quiet the prayers in my heart so I could fall asleep and even then I would awaken praying. It was the COOLEST and one of the most intimate times I have ever had with God.

I can honestly say that right now, I am not at that intimacy level with Christ...but I am at the point where I am SO THIRSTY for time with Christ that everything else will feel off until I meet this thirst with time with my Lord. Which is SO exciting to me!!!! I went through a spell last year where I felt so disconnected with God. I am so thankful where I am at the point now where I just miss that time with him. Praise God.

There was really no point to this blog other than to share my heart. This passage of scripture really touched me. To be satisfied in Christ...what an amazing blessing that he has given us. To want to know us intimately and to desire to meet our needs. I am going to try and get up in the mornings and spend time with God every day. I have tried this SO MANY TIMES in the past, and always choose sleep over God. I was convicted a few months ago of how much I idolize sleeping, and have since then been much better about getting the things done at night I need to get done and not just going to sleep....but getting up in the morning is a WHOLE other battle. I will let you know how it goes.

Thank you to those who made it to the end of this LONG blog. Pray for my obedience and discipline to get my BUTT out of bed in time to spend it with the Lord. I truly desire it!!! But...when I am half asleep, I can convince myself out of ANYTHING!!!

Much love. :)


Catherine Haskew said...

Hey girl,
I feel like we are definitely in the same spot spiritually so I will for sure lift you up in prayer! Can't wait to see you guys on Monday!

Jenn said...

thats beautiful tonya.

thanks for being open and sharing. i love that analogy too.

God is good!

"I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are your works, and my soul knows it very well."

~Psalm 139:14