Saturday, April 26, 2014

A Trip Up North

Last fall when Beth Moore's 2014 Living Proof Live schedule came out, I noticed that there was an event in Eden Prairie, MN in April.  Mom and I discussed attending and inviting my grandma, aunts and cousins.  Since we live so far, we NEVER get to do things like this with family and I am so blessed, as mentioned in a previous post, to have a lot of women in my family with great faith.  This is the only thing I regret about living 1200 miles south of the rest of my extended family.  We decided to go with it and make a girls trip out of it.  It was such a perfect week.  Mom and I had never traveled just the two of us like that, so it was very precious time.

This post will share my trip -- it will be long, so read at your own risk.  Lots of photos, but this trip is one that REALLY meant a lot to me.  I am SUPER close to all of my grandparents and I know that life is limited and want to take advantage of every opportunity I can to spend quality time with them. They have invested so much into my life and are such role models of faith, healthy long term marriages, joy in family, serving our country, taking care of each other and cheering each other on.....I count my blessings every day!

Here we go!  Not going to be in perfect order....

Mom and I were jet set and ready to go BRIGHT and EARLY!  On an express jet, which I thoroughly dislike.  Why do they need to make planes SO small???


We spent the first half of our week in the cities with my Mom's side of the family and attending Living Proof Live.   The weather started out beautifully...highs in the low 60s, and the week got progressively colder which the pictures will show.  :) 

We landed and were able to take Grandma and Wally to lunch at Perkins and then headed back to Grandma's condo.  We had made plans to have dinner with my cousin Alicia and her husband Ben that night.  They are both ministers, so they weren't available the rest of the weekend due to work, so we wanted to make sure and catch up.  I didn't get a good pic of me and Alicia sadly.  (Alicia - next time I see you, we are taking a picture!)  Alicia is three years younger than me, but I feel like we are very similar in a lot of ways and as we have grown up, have grown closer.  I wish I could see her more and support her ministry more in person, but alas I cannot.  My Aunt Kathy (Alicia's Mom) was planning to come to Grandma's too after work and my cousin Erika decided to come by last minute with her kids.  

Erika has just moved back to MN from VA, so it was the first time I had seen her in almost 4 years.  Erika and I were SUPER close when we were little because we are 6 months apart in age.  We could never coordinate where we were both back in MN visiting at the same time, so I was very excited to see her and meet 3 of her 5 children I had yet to meet!  Her kids are precious.  We met at the park at Grandma's church so the kids could run around. 

Mom and Grandma enjoying the GORGEOUS weather.  One of the first warmer days in MN, so the natives were loving it.  To me, it felt like fall.

Aunt Kathy, Alicia and precious Lucy.

Baby Mikey, Lucy, Erika, Kathy, Mom and Grandma

Mary Rachel was serving me and Mikey "breakfast"

Alicia playing with Mary Rachel

Finally got a pic of Lucy....she turns away from the camera like my niece Alyssa -- she has the sweetest giggle and smile

Mikey Boy
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Friday, Wally took us out to lunch and we ran a couple errands with Grandma and then headed out for Eden Prairie to LPL.  I wasn't sure how LPL would compare with Beth's Tuesday night studies at HFBC.  It was grander, but the teaching was just as good and the worship was PHENOMENAL!!!


Mom, Grandma and I on night one.  Love generational pictures!
My Aunt Sheryl attended the seminar with us.  I LOVE her!!


They started the evening with worship.  The first song was an amazing version of Forever Reign and really set the tone of the weekend.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE worship and could have worshiped the whole time!  


One of my favorite memories of Friday night was that I was able to worship with my Grandma by my side.  Although I don't have a picture, I would like to paint one for you because it will forever be grained into my mind. As they were wrapping up the evening with worship, Grandma was standing on my left side.  She put her right arm around me, so I put my left arm around her.  I had my right hand in the air and peeked over and Grandma had her left hand raised.  It was beautiful.  I so admire the faith of that woman.  Her and my Grandpa who passed away 10 years ago were the perfect example of a solid marriage and complete faith and trust in God.  The weekend we were in MN, it was the 10 year anniversary of Grandpa's funeral so it was neat to be with family and reflect back.

Saturday Beth brought great lessons about living out our faith daily.  It was a great time of learning...I would highly recommend you attend if you are able.  The only stop in TX in 2014 is in Lubbock.


Day too came early hence the sleepy eyes and blurriness

Grandma and I on day 2

Mom and Grandma
At the end of her discussion on Saturday morning, Beth had a time where she allowed others to share what God was telling them and then she would expound on their thoughts or pray or whatever she felt led to.  At one point she brought a girl down who had lost a child and had anyone who had lost a child stand up.  Beth prayed and then asked another woman to pray.  I did not stand up, because I felt that they were talking about women who had lost child after birth, not miscarriage...but the Spirit was definitely moving and although God has me in a great place right now regarding the miscarriage and TTC, I was getting a bit down in the moment.  As the woman was praying she made the comment, "We will get to see our children again in heaven and be able to hold their hands again."  In  my mind, I started thinking, "But I never got to hold my babies hand" and other doubting comments.  Beth followed the prayer with stating, aside from the loss of children, many women have suffered loss through miscarriage.  She then said, "this loss IS real.  Do not minimize your loss because you haven't physically met these children.  Your loss IS real."  In the moment I just lost it.....in a good way, because I hadn't realized how much I had tried to minimize my loss in comparison.  I wasn't sitting next to my mom, but looked down the aisle and my aunt and mom were sobbing, and so was I.  My mom moved down and hugged me and said "We will get to celebrate your children soon!"  It was a really sweet moment and led to a great convo between Mom and I later.  Love that my Mom is my closest friend.  Often times, people stop me and say "You know, your Mom is really special.  She is just really special."  I feel so blessed that number one I can say "Yes, BELIEVE me, I know she is."  As well as being able to say she is not only my mom, but my friend.

Saturday night was pretty quiet.  I did go for a run because the weather was amazing!  Nice and cool.



 Sunday was Palm Sunday.  It was Wally's birthday.  Wally is Grandma's close friend.  I find it very neat and a great picture of God's perfect timing, that on Palm Sunday 2014, which happened to be the 10 year anniversary of Grandpa's funeral, we were able to celebrate the 89th birthday of Wally, a new man in Grandma'a life that makes her laugh and brings her joy.  


We went to church and then headed to lunch to meet up with a bunch of our family and then we headed up north to spend the remainder of our trip with my other Grandparents.




Happy Birthday Wally!!


All the kiddos -- we were able to see Charles and Robyn and their sweet little girls Fable and Alyce.

COUSINS!!!

The whole gang...I love how all the little kids snuck into the picture!

Our time up north was very relaxed which was needed because the first half of the trip was super busy.  We got to walk together a lot, enjoy the FREEZING temps.  It was 20 degrees!  Grandma made great food and we just chatted and laughed for three days.  It was perfect!  Their house at the lake is so gorgeous.  Should have taken more pics...their sunsets are ridiculous over the lake.


Just out for a nice spring stroll -- what!

Although this was an accidental photo I love it.  My grandparents laugh ALL the time!!!  


I always love visiting with Grandma and Grandpa.  My Grandma is somewhat reserved, but ever since my miscarriage has been one of the few not afraid to ask me how I am doing.  She has been a huge support for me.  Grandpa thinks we will end up adopting.  God only knows at this point. :)


I have a confession:  I LOVE LOVE puzzles.  Well, Grandma does too, so i knew she had a bunch at home, so Sunday when we arrived, I picked one out and Grandma, Mom and I spent much of our time on this puzzle for the remainder of our visit.  I think i picked her hardest puzzle! :)


BUT WE FINISHED!!




Anyone still with me???  That was our trip!  Lots of great memories...much needed time off work!

Comment if you made it to the bottom and I will enter you into a drawing for something from Stella and Dot. :)

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

It's the journey.

“It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.” 
― Ernest Hemingway


I am NOT one of those people that can eat whatever I want without showing any consequences.  I have always dealt with weight issues and as I look back in pictures, I can see my weight going up and down.  Once I quit working at PwC and was able to have a normal schedule where I could commit to working out and actually be able to get to the gym, I was able to build a pretty active lifestyle and maintained pretty well.  When we miscarried, it through everything out of whack and I have the tendency to "earn" bad food habits if work is stressful or life is wearing me down, so I justify poor food and exercise choices due to everything else I have being thrown at me.  Really...it is just excuses.

Well, if you can relate, you know you have a long term "this is my ideal weight/size" goal, but progress towards that goal takes TIME and LOTS of effort.  Well, to compound my challenge, every month since we have started trying to conceive, the last two months I worry if I am overdoing it.  "What if I am pregnant and this workout is too strenuous?" etc etc  These thoughts only escalate having miscarried and knowing that not all babies "stick."  If you have been there,  you can relate.  Please know that I know nothing I am doing is really that strenuous.  I am not a professional weight lifter and I am not under eating causing my body to lack nourishment.  I know that my miscarriage had nothing to do with something I did, but if you have been there you know those thoughts go through  your mind.

Anyways, I finally got to the point where I was going month in and month out excusing my way out of being healthy through food and exercise.  Stress at work, busy lifestyle, baby woes...you name it, I have used it as an excuse.  Well enough is enough....it really boils down to one decision at a time.  Will you make a good one or a bad one.  Although the long term goal is there, I feel I need to focus on my short term daily goals.

My sister in law is the BEST role model you can find when it comes to being healthy.  She has never done anything drastic to lose weight, or counted calories...probably rarely weighs herself, but over the last three years she has shrunk down to being in amazing shape.  Seriously she looks great.  She still eats well, she still gets to drink wine, but she makes more good choices than bad ones.  She is my role model.

Anyways, I need some kind of accountability, so I am using My Fitness Pal to track my calories, because I am not at a point of maintaining my weight, I do need to lose weight.  Plus the accountability of My Fitness Pal helps me to make better choices.

Here are my daily/weekly short term goals to build a healthier lifestyle:

  • Wear my Fitbit and get at least 5000 steps on days I don't work out and 10000 on days that I do work out.
  • Track calories and exercise on My Fitness Pal for accountability
  • Exercise at least 30 minutes at least 3 times per week. (hope to increase this eventually)
  • No SODA other than a rare occasion
  • Wine only on the weekends (if at all)

Anyone else working on a healthier lifestyle? I would love to hear what your goals are...maybe we can challenge each other.  I hope to post once a week at first about my progress, more so for my own accountability.  I will be honest about my failures and successes.  Unless I actually get pregnant, I will not allow myself to use that excuse any more.  :)




Thursday, April 17, 2014

Let's Get Real - The Beauty of the Heart

I just got back from a week in Minnesota visiting family (post with pics of our whole trip to follow).  While we were there, my Mom, Grandma and Aunt attended Beth Moore's "Living Proof Live."


It was a wonderful time of teaching and worship.  The worship was PHENOMENAL!!  I am NOT a good singer, but I LOVE LOVE LOVE worship.  This was one of my favorite songs from the event.



At one point I was sitting there in worship and started thinking about the blessing of being able to stand there and worship arm and arm with my family.  As I raised my hands in praise, I glanced over and my Grandma had arm around me and one arm in the air praising as well.  It was an amazing moment that brought me to tears and a moment I will never forget.  My Grandma has been a role model in my faith for as long as I can remember.  How blessed to have such great role models between my Grandmas, Aunts, Mom of course, cousins.....all not only family by blood, but sisters in the faith and it.is.beautiful.  

I knew the women in my family are wonderful, generous, compassionate people -- but the beauty of their hearts is beyond compare.  I am so grateful for being able to attend LPL with them....we live in different states, so the opportunity to attend things like this are very limited.  

Here are some pics from LPL.


Mom and Grandma

Mom, Grandma and Aunt Sheryl 

We are reading to head to Eden Prairie from Grandma's

Blurry.....wish it wasn't
I have a few other posts about my trip to Minnesota.....stay tuned.

Construction has finally started!!

I know it has been a while, in March, we finally started seeing some activity on the lot!  Here are some pics to update you....


They dig up the dirt on the lot to lay the platform for the foundation.

Fresh dirt is brought in and packed down.

Framing started -- this was very exciting because we could actually start to see where the house would lay on the lot.

Our Outhouse "house" :)  First sign activity will begin.



Forms are set and ready for pouring

Welcome to our home -- I am standing at our front door!

Concrete day -- this made me SO happy!!!


Foundation!  View from the front door, looks straight through into the backyard.

View from front door towards the kitchen and back into the garage!
Then framing started and things got really exciting!!!

Alex, Dan and Spencer standing in our front entry


Spencer LOVES exploring the new lot

We are standing our in living room by what will be there fire place


I am standing in my kitchen - at the sink
The house as it looks today!  

We still have a long way to go, but it is so fun to see progress!

"I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are your works, and my soul knows it very well."



~Psalm 139:14